dilemma

i feel like crying..
i dont know ..
people tend to treat me like i'm a slave n like i'm nobody...and you can simply make fun of me and my situation....as if i dont have any opinion, feelings n waterface.
treating me like i dont exist, but in the meantime, burden me with your things and works..
n of coz, the bad talkings u did..purposely or not..
i'm the one who have to shield myself from your mental tortures n bad comments..
like i'm a person with no feelings at all..i'm a human...
oh come on people...
if u dont like to stay n be around the people u hated the most, so do I ..
if u are not comfortable to be around the person who 24-7 bad mouthing n judging u, so do I..
then, why cant u understand my situation?
if the -ve auras are dominant than the +ve, why should i stay there?
if its beacuse of my job, then, i have to take the responsiblility, but dont simply look it as a chance for you to condemn myself if i lack the knowledge etc..
and pls try to understand others..
put yourself in their shoes....
i nearly lost faith that the world still have the good n kind hearted people..
after all this while, i thought i am strong enough to take the pressure...
n some how, those bad people will learn their lessons..
maybe i just need to be silent n accept all those wrong doings and the pain, and pray that the persons responsible will finally realize the bad things they have done to me n my life..
but, the thruth is, world n life just dont work that way..

the world nowadays

it has been a while...
yet i still have unfinished issues linger around me....
yep...i just need time to focus and recognize my priorities before i make any decisisons..its mostly regarding the future plans (doctorate studies etc)...and the impact of the decision to my life and family...
but what i want to share here is the sad story of my husband's best friend..
his marriage is about to fall apart....
it still in less than 5 years of their marriage life...
astagfirullah...
it is a shock to see such a loving couple ended to such situation..
where have the love and the understanding gone?
it has made me and my husband to more appreciate life..
we are praying for better tomorrow for both of them, but most of all, its their children that we are worried of...