decided!!

refer here
http://naj-ain.blogspot.com/2011/05/decision.html

till we hear from me again...

teaching skill : something to develop with time?

ok...terpanggil nak ngomel pasal teaching skill ni berdasarkan pengalaman minggu ini..

Last week, i was assigned to teach a visitor from negara x (she is an assoc prof) who is here to gain knowledge and do some research colab on AM and P analysis.

and that was what i did...ajar dan bantu (mana yg boleh n mana yg ain tahu)

tapi, selama 4 hari ain mengajar, ain ended up hari2 balik dgn minda paling sarat, emosi terganggu, tension n mata merah (almost menagis kala bercerita kat en hubby)

it was hard for me to teach someone who is far older than me..on top of that, i have to deal with her 'ego' and i guess her 'dependancy' on myself...

i found myself close to losing my temper several times...

bila balik umah, en hubby mmg nampak ain stress n mata dah merah...so, ain discuss n bercerita ngan en hubby..

kami bermuhasabah (sambil sama2 gelakkan diri ain n penceritaan ain) n concluded that i havent equip myself with the right and proper teaching skills (n tahap kesabaran dan mentaliti serta pemahaman ttg human management yg tinggi) that i've needed to deal with this kind of situation..

yeah, selama kerja, takder pulak pegi atau ditawarkan utk mengikuti kursus mengajar/teknik mengajar etc..so, camno tetiba boleh pandai mengajar pulak kan? mana ada skil yg semulajadik? semuanya perlu dipeljari, dipupuk dan diperbaiki masa ke semasa...

even cikgu2 pun ada kursus teknik mengajaq ni, betui tak?

pada hemat ain, ain masih belajar utk mengajar...dgn cara yg betul..

rata2, i'm expecting that my student will be younger than myself and i would be a lot easier...

but when i was put in a different situation, i didnt know what to do..

i ended up helping a to z up to the step for calculating the dilution factor, helping her getting the right way of holding n pressing the pipette and providing her all the help (even the silly one) ...

i believe spoon feeding is not the right way to teach as students will become totally dependant on us...but i helped her anyway...
sbb i did not know the fine line between teaching n helping....

n takyah cerita bab aku ni garang bila part mengajaq orang..even bila ain ngajaq kawan sendiri (si mali) pasal biolog masa wat master tu, boleh mali kata ain garang...tak macam ain yg depa kenal selain waktu ngajaq...

so, garang dah sinonim ngan ain (bila mengajaq jer kot)..bukan garang yg dibuat, tapi ain ni jarang nak bertegas n most of the time happy go lucky n sengih 24 jam..so, bila mai bab mengajaq, tone suara ain akan automatik berubah dan i am totally a different person...(rasanya la kan)..

i realized my ' garang' tone when i was teaching her..now i feel very guilty...

habis, camno nak ngajar seorg yg degil lagik semua dia mau tanya ...semua mau direct answer n semua nak ain tlg buat sampai satu peringkat dia dah malas nak pikir n suruh ain adjust volume kat pippettor tu utk dia (dia dah treat ain macam RA dia pulakkkk)...apa cerita ngan hands on experiences? learing by doing by yourself?

haiyohhhhhhhhhh...

it is an isolated case i supposed..having to deal with this kind of human being....

moralnya, ain tak salahkan dia langsung...i have to improve myself so that i am well prepared in future if i were to deal with this kind of situation again..

ain tahu masih jauh lagik perjalanan ain dalam profesion mengajar ini..

mengajar mungkin senang, tapi memastikan apa yg diajar itu sampai dan difahami itu perlukan teknik n cara yg betul
ada byk pendekatan utk mengajar, bergantung pada audience/ kumpulan fokus..
sikap n etika masa mengajar tak semestinya perlu garang dan 'ikut buku'...

banyak lagik nak coret utk pedoman n ingatan utk diri sendiri, but i 'll continue in some other time...

it is tricky....

CINTA KPD THESIS

Agak kelakar bila tgk status teman seperjuangan di facebook beliau...

"I am currently in a relationship - with my Ph.D- Thesis !!!
I love you my dear valentine - thesis ....!!!"



credit to : http://www.phdcomics.com/comics.php?f=1414


it is very very complicated relationship..

kadang2 suka, kadang2 tak suka...
kadang2 terpaksa suka...most of the time, terpaksa suka...

betui2 ambik masa nak menyelami hati 'thesis'ku...

huhuhu...

dreaming BIG..

I am not a big dreamer...

Haruslah ain mengaku yg ain ni bekerja dan bergerak ikut keadaan semasa..ain tak pandang jauh...
tidak mimpi yg besar2..tidak punya matlamat besar2an dan tidak punya perancangan masa depan yg details etc..

I work and play as the day come..taking the day as it comes. A step at the time...

En hubby penah memberi komen yg ain perlu bermimpi besar..sementelah dialah org yg paling paham diri ain..dia tahu sikap ain yg tidak bermimpi besar ni takkan membawa ain lebih jauh jika terus-terusan ain tak ambik endah akan matlamat dan hala tuju diri sendiri , katakan 5 tahun, 10 dan 20 tahun akan datang.

Seriously, tak penah pun terlintas utk ain pursue phd ni...cita2ain cuma ingin menjadik cikgu..tapi, memikirkan bapak ain yg mahu anaknya beroleh kerjaya yg lebih baik drpdnya, ain upgrade cita2 kpd menjadik seorang pensyrah...

Cukup di situ...takdernyer pikir lagik tinggi utk memegang jawatan dlm tampuk pentadbiran etc...

Niat ain n minat ain cuma ingin mengajar jer...tapi, pesyarah pun kena buat research...ok..akur di situ..

N writing..? alamakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Ni yg eden lemahhhhhhhhhhhh ni...

Jika tiada syarat utk seorg pernsyrah perlu ada phd, mungin sampai ke sudah pun ain takkan buat phd (kalo tak disuruh)
—i know..teruk kan?

Ain sedar ain agak ketinggalan in terms of publuication and academic achievements mahupun career achievements berbanding rakan yg lain..jawatan pun masih berstatus sementara..publication tarak...achievement lain pun yilek...
Dah almost 8 tahun d upm pun, masih lom ada satu paper ain yg ain hantar utk publish..

So, talking about dreaming big.. i am taking my husband’s advice on trying to dream big...
I am hoping that year 2011 will bring new meaning to myself for dreaming big this year...

Yes, i think that is the motivation right now.. i need to set a target (which i don’t normally) from now on.. well at least dreaming of some achievements this year, if not for 5 years etc.. try to work and aim for this year first..we’ll see the progress...

Kalo dizinkan Allah dan dipermudahkan segala urusan, harapnya sinar kejayaan akan menunggu at the end of this long phd tunnel ....

Doakan ain yer...