UTK DIRI SENDIRI YG SELALU LALAI

Sedari kecil, bapak telah mengajar kami utk sentiasa membaca surah Yaasin...

dari bertatih mengeja dan membaca muqaddam...
hinggalah ke peringkat khatam Quran...

selain makcik norsiah, guru mengaji kami adalah bapak....
imam kami jugak adalah bapak...

bacaan ayat2 suci Al Quran dari bapak adalah halwa telinga setiap pagi, maghrib dan selepas solat...sehingga kini...(diselangi batuk2 tanda tuanya diri bapak)

selepas surah Yaasin, bapak ajak kami baca surah Al Waqiah dan Al-Mulk...

itulah rutin sebelum kami masing2 membesar d asrama dan uni..

d sekolah, segala nasyid dan surah boleh kedengran melalui pembesar suara d banguna aspuri mahupun aspura..

d sekolah, ain kehilangan al Quran milik bapak yg ain bawa dari rumah dan simpan d surau..

namun al Quran itu ada 'peminat'nya tersendiri...*nangis sbb ada org ambik Al Quran kita*

d uni, bacaan ayat2 suci Al Quran itu diperdengarkan pada zaman dip d kolej...

amat menarik hati utk menghadiahkan al Quran pada empunya suara lunak itu...

(tentu indah jika suara manis itu bernasyid n membaca al Quran..pasti!!)..

dan langsung lupa dan alpa selepas itu....(lupa ingatan?)

di negara org, susah ingin mendengar bacaan suci ini jika bukan dr diri sendiri atau ahli keluarga atau dr youtube..

tetiba rindu masa lalu..

masa d rumah, masa d sekolah dan masa di uni..

indahnya jika dapat mendengar bacaan surah al Quran dari bapak...

indahnya jika anak beranak dan cucu2 bersolat berimamkan bapak...

bezanya, hanya bapak dan mak dan abg d rumah itu..

ain masih d sini..

will try one day to do this..bersama ainin!!
solat n mengaji bersama anak, suami, mak, adik beradik n their family diketuai dan diimamkan bapak...

Abdullah Basfar - Surah Al Waqiah



Surah Al-Mulk - Ibrahim Jibreen - BEAUTIFUL RECITATION!

discrepancies

dis·crep·an·cy

 

noun, plural -cies for 2.

1.

the state or quality of being discrepant; difference;inconsistency.

2.

an instance of difference or inconsistency: There are certaindiscrepancies between the two versions
of the story.

Synonyms

1. incongruity, disagreement, discordance, contrariety, variance.See difference.

2. variation.

dapat dr

http://dictionary.reference.com/browse/discrepancies

surah al Kahfi

perspicacious

perspicacious \pur-spi-KEY-shuhs

adjective:
1. Having keen mental perception and understanding; discerning.
2. Archaic. Having keen vision.

You are perspicacious, know the ways of the world, and are more tactful than most men of your age.
-- Alexandre Dumas, The Count of Monte Cristo

More perspicacious neighbors, the Paulsens among them, suspected that Joey also enjoyed being the smartest person in the house.
-- Jonathan Franzen, Freedom

dapat from this link

http://dictionary.reference.com/wordoftheday/archive/2012/01/16.html

free writing

hopefully, ianya akan jadik something that i'll do everyday starting today!!!

decided!!

refer here
http://naj-ain.blogspot.com/2011/05/decision.html

till we hear from me again...

teaching skill : something to develop with time?

ok...terpanggil nak ngomel pasal teaching skill ni berdasarkan pengalaman minggu ini..

Last week, i was assigned to teach a visitor from negara x (she is an assoc prof) who is here to gain knowledge and do some research colab on AM and P analysis.

and that was what i did...ajar dan bantu (mana yg boleh n mana yg ain tahu)

tapi, selama 4 hari ain mengajar, ain ended up hari2 balik dgn minda paling sarat, emosi terganggu, tension n mata merah (almost menagis kala bercerita kat en hubby)

it was hard for me to teach someone who is far older than me..on top of that, i have to deal with her 'ego' and i guess her 'dependancy' on myself...

i found myself close to losing my temper several times...

bila balik umah, en hubby mmg nampak ain stress n mata dah merah...so, ain discuss n bercerita ngan en hubby..

kami bermuhasabah (sambil sama2 gelakkan diri ain n penceritaan ain) n concluded that i havent equip myself with the right and proper teaching skills (n tahap kesabaran dan mentaliti serta pemahaman ttg human management yg tinggi) that i've needed to deal with this kind of situation..

yeah, selama kerja, takder pulak pegi atau ditawarkan utk mengikuti kursus mengajar/teknik mengajar etc..so, camno tetiba boleh pandai mengajar pulak kan? mana ada skil yg semulajadik? semuanya perlu dipeljari, dipupuk dan diperbaiki masa ke semasa...

even cikgu2 pun ada kursus teknik mengajaq ni, betui tak?

pada hemat ain, ain masih belajar utk mengajar...dgn cara yg betul..

rata2, i'm expecting that my student will be younger than myself and i would be a lot easier...

but when i was put in a different situation, i didnt know what to do..

i ended up helping a to z up to the step for calculating the dilution factor, helping her getting the right way of holding n pressing the pipette and providing her all the help (even the silly one) ...

i believe spoon feeding is not the right way to teach as students will become totally dependant on us...but i helped her anyway...
sbb i did not know the fine line between teaching n helping....

n takyah cerita bab aku ni garang bila part mengajaq orang..even bila ain ngajaq kawan sendiri (si mali) pasal biolog masa wat master tu, boleh mali kata ain garang...tak macam ain yg depa kenal selain waktu ngajaq...

so, garang dah sinonim ngan ain (bila mengajaq jer kot)..bukan garang yg dibuat, tapi ain ni jarang nak bertegas n most of the time happy go lucky n sengih 24 jam..so, bila mai bab mengajaq, tone suara ain akan automatik berubah dan i am totally a different person...(rasanya la kan)..

i realized my ' garang' tone when i was teaching her..now i feel very guilty...

habis, camno nak ngajar seorg yg degil lagik semua dia mau tanya ...semua mau direct answer n semua nak ain tlg buat sampai satu peringkat dia dah malas nak pikir n suruh ain adjust volume kat pippettor tu utk dia (dia dah treat ain macam RA dia pulakkkk)...apa cerita ngan hands on experiences? learing by doing by yourself?

haiyohhhhhhhhhh...

it is an isolated case i supposed..having to deal with this kind of human being....

moralnya, ain tak salahkan dia langsung...i have to improve myself so that i am well prepared in future if i were to deal with this kind of situation again..

ain tahu masih jauh lagik perjalanan ain dalam profesion mengajar ini..

mengajar mungkin senang, tapi memastikan apa yg diajar itu sampai dan difahami itu perlukan teknik n cara yg betul
ada byk pendekatan utk mengajar, bergantung pada audience/ kumpulan fokus..
sikap n etika masa mengajar tak semestinya perlu garang dan 'ikut buku'...

banyak lagik nak coret utk pedoman n ingatan utk diri sendiri, but i 'll continue in some other time...

it is tricky....

CINTA KPD THESIS

Agak kelakar bila tgk status teman seperjuangan di facebook beliau...

"I am currently in a relationship - with my Ph.D- Thesis !!!
I love you my dear valentine - thesis ....!!!"



credit to : http://www.phdcomics.com/comics.php?f=1414


it is very very complicated relationship..

kadang2 suka, kadang2 tak suka...
kadang2 terpaksa suka...most of the time, terpaksa suka...

betui2 ambik masa nak menyelami hati 'thesis'ku...

huhuhu...

dreaming BIG..

I am not a big dreamer...

Haruslah ain mengaku yg ain ni bekerja dan bergerak ikut keadaan semasa..ain tak pandang jauh...
tidak mimpi yg besar2..tidak punya matlamat besar2an dan tidak punya perancangan masa depan yg details etc..

I work and play as the day come..taking the day as it comes. A step at the time...

En hubby penah memberi komen yg ain perlu bermimpi besar..sementelah dialah org yg paling paham diri ain..dia tahu sikap ain yg tidak bermimpi besar ni takkan membawa ain lebih jauh jika terus-terusan ain tak ambik endah akan matlamat dan hala tuju diri sendiri , katakan 5 tahun, 10 dan 20 tahun akan datang.

Seriously, tak penah pun terlintas utk ain pursue phd ni...cita2ain cuma ingin menjadik cikgu..tapi, memikirkan bapak ain yg mahu anaknya beroleh kerjaya yg lebih baik drpdnya, ain upgrade cita2 kpd menjadik seorang pensyrah...

Cukup di situ...takdernyer pikir lagik tinggi utk memegang jawatan dlm tampuk pentadbiran etc...

Niat ain n minat ain cuma ingin mengajar jer...tapi, pesyarah pun kena buat research...ok..akur di situ..

N writing..? alamakkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkkk. Ni yg eden lemahhhhhhhhhhhh ni...

Jika tiada syarat utk seorg pernsyrah perlu ada phd, mungin sampai ke sudah pun ain takkan buat phd (kalo tak disuruh)
—i know..teruk kan?

Ain sedar ain agak ketinggalan in terms of publuication and academic achievements mahupun career achievements berbanding rakan yg lain..jawatan pun masih berstatus sementara..publication tarak...achievement lain pun yilek...
Dah almost 8 tahun d upm pun, masih lom ada satu paper ain yg ain hantar utk publish..

So, talking about dreaming big.. i am taking my husband’s advice on trying to dream big...
I am hoping that year 2011 will bring new meaning to myself for dreaming big this year...

Yes, i think that is the motivation right now.. i need to set a target (which i don’t normally) from now on.. well at least dreaming of some achievements this year, if not for 5 years etc.. try to work and aim for this year first..we’ll see the progress...

Kalo dizinkan Allah dan dipermudahkan segala urusan, harapnya sinar kejayaan akan menunggu at the end of this long phd tunnel ....

Doakan ain yer...

email sentap dr KJ

haha..pinjam istilah sentap dr bloggger2 hebat..

my ex superviosr (sv) masa master dolu sudah naik pangkat jadik ketua jabatan..

as far as i'm concern, she is very considerate and understanding person..

nak jadik cerita, tetiba last week dapat email dr kj yg buat ain tersentap kejap..

isi email yg straight to the point dgn 4 soklan menusuk kalbu ...huhuhu..

basically tanya pasal progress phd..dok buat apa (research) sekarang, bila nak abis, bila mau balik bertugas, bla bla bla...

memikirkan yg kj mmg understanding orgnya, ain pikir it was basically her concerns on my progress that has driven her to send the mail..

i am guessing there might be other factors that triggered her to send me the email, if that was not out of concern..

factor 1 : more to her concern..realizing that i took longer than buat phd to finish up my master...kena trcak ain nyer progress ni...

factor 2 : 1. rizal (tutor satu jabatn dah nak berangkat balik--dah abis master (2 thn), itu kot tetiba trigger pasal progress ain yg lebih dolu mai wat reserach d uwa nih)

factor no 3 : ujung2 tahun ni, banyak kot review progress staff

factor 4 : org lain maybe dok tanya kj, so she need to provide the answer...

OK..ain pikir positif ja..yg mana yg dah lepas tu, tak dapat ain nak ubah..

ain reply email itu dgn sebaik boleh, dikepilkan dgn segala attcahment progress report and poster copy yg ain ada..

doa ain semoga phd journey ain lebih berjaya....

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love to share mutiara kata...

mutiara hidup...

Musuh utama manusia adalah dirinya sendiri,
Kegagalan utama manusia adalah kesombongannya.

Kebodohan utama manusia,
Adalah sifat menipunya.

Kesedihan utama manusia,
Adalah rasa iri hatinya.

Kesalahan utama manusia,
Adalah mencampakkan dirinya,
Dan orang lain.

Sifat manusia yg terpuji adalah rendah hati,
Sifat manusia yang paling diuji adalah semangatnya,
Kehancuran terbesar manusia adalah putus asa,
Harta utama manusia adalah kesihatan.

Hutang terbesar manusia adalah sifat berkeluh-kesah,
dan tidak memiliki kebijaksanaan,
Ketenteraman manusia adalah,
Suka bersedekah dan beramal.

Segala pekerjaan mudah untuk dilakukan kecuali satu hal,
Memahami apa adanya tanpa mempersoalkan 'kekurangannya'.

Sebagaimana diri kita, demikian juga makhluk lain,
Sebagaimana makhluk lain, demikian juga diri kita.

Dengan memikirkan mereka, dengan membandingkan mereka,
Tidak seharusnya kita saling berselisih, bertengkar,
Dan membunuh atau menyebabkan hal itu.

*Dipetik dari majalah Blues.


ain pulak petik dr sini..credit to:
http://www.iluvislam.com/karya/puisi-kreatif/968-mutiara-hidup.html?sms_ss=blogger&at_xt=4d184029b2d9da6e%2C0

Mutiara Hidup | iluvislam.com + discover the beauty of islam

Dil Kya Kare (1999) w/ Eng Sub - Hindi Movie - Part 16 (Last)

mlm minggu layan cerita hindi kat youtube...

dan..

tak pernah tak tersentuh bila tgk part ni..
jiwang betul tgk cerita kajol n ajay ni...

maal hijrah

it is a fight to leave the old bad habits..

but i have to really implement and understand the word SACRIFICE, PRESERVERANCE, HARSHIP, NO WEAK WILL..

and hope that everthings will pay back some day..someday...

Ya Allah, tolonglah hambamu yg lemah ni...

ups and downs...

i am currently byk kat DOWN instead of UP...

lom ada byk pencaapaian..lom boleh ada satu tepuk di bahu sendiri..

i need to be more productive!!

finishing within time---doakan daku!!!!!!!!!!!!

wanna share a link that been forwarded to my email today..

Factors Contributing to "Failure " of Sponsored PhD candidates to finish within the specified time

The MOHE grant was given to a group of academics to study the factors as well as the impact of sponsored academics to finish their PhD’s in the specified time. The study covered the time period 2000-2010. The method of data gathering was by issuing questionnaire as well as interviews. The respondents were the candidates, DVC, Deans and officers in charge of the study leave. For detailed analysis, refer to the report of Grant KPT 9003-00195.The study concludes that:

1. Those who studied overseas managed to complete their studies earlier than those who did so in local universities (4.3 years as opposed to 4.7 years)
2. Other secondary factors are attitude, health, and environmental
3. 35.5% found difficulty in writing chapters 4-6 (analysis, discussion and conclusion) and therefore could not complete within the time
4. 3 years is too short a time. 78.4% of respondents want this to be revised. Need and criteria depend on programme and the supervisor involved.
5. For those who completed the degree, the important contributing factors are preparation prior to study, the supervisor and self discipline are all contributing factors.

(The total number of respondents were 653)

refer here---:>http://jauharkalam.blogspot.com/2010/11/factors-contributing-to-failure-of.html

kata2 pembuka senyum..eh..semangat!!

Laughter is a fantastic antidote to energy slump

musim bunga .....

ni bunga pa hah?

tumbuh tepi jalan ja..

mencari balik gambar2 tahun 2008..mana ntah pegi?

writing prob

selalu ain ada problem bila mai bab writing..

horror ajer bila nak buat even 1 paragraph results mahupun literature review...

teringat betapa bertahun tahun lamanya menulis dgn puluhan malahan mungkin ratusan edisi draft ngan jutaan proses edit sana cut sini, copy n paste n alter sana sini...

horror lagik bila teringat direction dan penceritaan tesis bertukar 360 darjah pabila keputusan tak menepati hipotesis..

apakah motivasi n langkah yg boleh dipraktikkan utk atasi horror nak nulis n writer's block itu?

yg ain tahu...ain avoid writing because of my trauma n that the way of supervision of my current sv is completely different 360 degree to that of my previous sv during my master journey...that is in the way of me getting their feedbacks...masa master tak sampai 2 minggu mmg dah dapat balik feedback..

sv sekarang sibuk kat admin work....i rarely get feedbacks of my writing (tulih literature review ja yg paling habih pun).....

so, what must i do?

all these research works need some black and white (write up la...apo lagik!!)

pls pls pls..what must i do?

lesson lerant from msc journey : lesson 1

lesson 1: do not fear to fail

ain selalu trauma bila cerita pasal master...i mean i've always pictured myself as a failure...due to my horrible terrible msc journey..

sejak zaman gelap master, i dont have the confident anymore...

a good start in the msc didnt promise a better and smooth sailing research journey...i've lerant that...so, till now, though i am now in my 2nd yr phd candidature, i am still having this trauma n cant take myself out from the 'failure' suit...

i am scared...

but, i'd rather have a not so msmooth sailing, asalkan ia membawa kejayaan at the end of my journey..maybe failure cuma satu ujian utk buat ain lebih tabah...n push us to try harder n do better...

Allah Maha Mengetahui...

thus, I am going to take this journey as positive i can ...